My life has always been a series of planned decisions – something that an over-thinker like me, has found to be so comfortable in this ever-changing reality of life.

Probably the biggest decision I have ever made was to leave everything I have behind and walk into the unknown – packing my life into one luggage and just allowing my feet to take me to this place which seemed so familiar but so different at the same time.

What I found quite ironic though, is how a planned decision can bring so much uncertainty at the same time. Planning to step into a world which was so much different than what I was used to, was something that made me feel like I was hanging on the edge – not knowing whether I was a feet or a hundred meters from the ground. The thought of this scares me and exhilarates me up until this moment. I guess it’s because the unknown has always been something that was so terrifying but also so exciting for me.

I knew in myself that there was only one way for me to face this, and it was to buckle up and enjoy the ride. It was to eventually let go of something that I held on for too long, and to take a leap and embrace the greater moments in life without having to think too much about it. In the process, I realized that maybe this was something that I have wanted all along.

True enough, by letting go, I was able to experience some of the best moments in my life here in Antwerp, with people I never even knew 4 months ago. Maybe it could have been that moment when my friends and I decided to spontaneously go out and drink after a gruesome self-study session at the AMS labs; it could be the time wherein some of us just decided – on the day itself – to get together on a school evening after a really heavy week of school work; it could be as simple as those faint moments wherein I would share life conversations with my course mates at the foyer during lunch breaks.

At the end of the day, the best moments in life don’t necessarily have to originate from something that you have planned thoroughly. Because moments know no time, place, and people – and this kind of uncertainty is what makes life so beautiful.

 

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